Today while stressing out about bills, as I always do because I’m pretty much stressed out all the time due to being an overthinker, I decided to finally do the pile of dishes that had been staring at me all day. I forgot how much I like to clean and how it always makes me feel better, which is insane since my room was always messy until I married Mykal. Maybe it’s the fact that I grew up a disorganized mess that being in a clean, organized and structured home, puts my mind at ease. All the things that I have been worrying about just seemed to fade away and allowed me to think for a moment. The mind is truly amazing, it is always thinking and it can be overwhelming, but when I clean I am allowed to focus on the tedious task and distract my brain which allowed for that moment of clarity I so desperatly needed. For some reason all of my problems and worries seems insignificant and almost like I will be able to overcome them, It just seemed so simple, like I was just worrying so much about the problems that I was blind to the answer that was sitting there in front of me. Continue reading →