It’s been about a month since I last blogged. A lot has been going on that I just haven’t found the time to sit and blog, not to mention that when Ally sees the laptop out she runs right over and starts pushing as many buttons as possible haha. So basically if she is awake, then no laptop. I started a part-time job around the time I posted my last post, and since then I’ve been trying to put in some extra hours. Those credit cards aren’t going to pay themselves, though that would be great if they did. A good friend that I’ve known since elementary school got me in at his job, which goes to prove, once again, that it’s not what you know, it’s who you know. Lucky for me I know a lot of people. Because I know you are dying to know where I work, I’ll just say that I work in a senior living home in dining services. Which has its ups and downs, but that’s a post for another day, today I’m just playing catch up.
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Hello Again, It’s Been Too Long
Hey there, so we are going on like, what, a month of no new posts? Sorry about that folks. I’ve been meaning to post something and then things just get in the way or I am too tired to do so. There have been a lot of changes going on lately and I’m still adjusting to it all. I guess I could just go ahead and get you up to speed on things. Ready for a mini novel?
Part-Time Parent
Ok, I know that I just posted something yesterday but I am feeling really blue right now and I need to let it all out somewhere. Maybe I’ll feel better after I get it all off my chest. I keep thinking that I am ok with being back at work. I mean sure, I miss Alanna like crazy, but I keep telling myself that I am doing this for her. That by me working, she will never go wanting. But honestly, I hate it. I hate that I am not the one that gets to spend time with Alanna all day. That I don’t get to watch her every bit of growing. That I can’t be the one who teaches her how to sit up and crawl and talk and, well, everything. I really hate myself for this. I feel like it should be me. That I, as her mother, should be the one to feed her and play with her all day. To lay her down for a nap and be there to hold her when she cries. I get to see her from 5pm until 6am the next morning. But she goes to sleep between 10pm and 11pm and so I really only get to see for about five or six hours a day. And she will probably nap an hour or two of that time. Sigh. It’s like I never get to spend time with her. Today for instance, she has been asleep since at least 7pm. I got to hold and play with her for maybe an hour since I got off work late today and didn’t get to pick her up until 6pm. There are days that I cry all the way to and from work. Tomorrow will probably be one of those days. I just hope I don’t miss everything because I am at work all the time. Being a part-time parent sucks.
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