Category Archives: Family

The Fears of Having a Second Kid

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So its been a while since I’ve last blogged and a few things have had me pretty busy. We moved from a rent house to an apartment to save money and then bam, I get pregnant. I’m not surprised though considering we were kind of trying. But anyways Ally is about to turn two this month and I’m four months along in my pregnancy.

I’m excited that we will be adding to our family, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. I’m terrified right now. Just so many worries. I am an only child from a divorced home, I’ve never know what it was like to have siblings or watch as my parents loved more than just me. I have this horrible fear that I won’t be able to love two children equally. When Ally came into my life I was shown a whole new kind of love and attachment, how can that happen more than once? Will I be biased and favor one child over the other? I don’t want that to be the case, at all. I’m worried Ally will feel left out or pushed aside with a new baby.

How can I do this? How do I know I will be able to be a good mom to two kids? How can I lead two children and raise them to be productive members of society? I’m just lucky that I have my husband to help me. He has siblings and is great with kids, we are total opposites that way. Without him, I would be lost. But even knowing he will be there, I am still scared. I need to be strong and I need to remember that I will fail from time to time and as long as I learn from my mistakes I should be fine. Its just hard. I know Mykal can handle the bills and will take care of us. I know he would be a better stay at home parent than I will be, I’m not afraid to admit that, ashamed? Yes. But I will admit it none the less. The things I do know isn’t an issue though. Its the things I don’t. Its the unknown, those are the things that keep me up at night.

But maybe getting some of those things out of my head will give me a little peace and allow me to get the sleep I need. I’m going to try and sleep right now. Wish me luck.

Good night.

I Found My Way Back to the Interwebz!

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It’s been about a month since I last blogged. A lot has been going on that I just haven’t found the time to sit and blog, not to mention that when Ally sees the laptop out she runs right over and starts pushing as many buttons as possible haha. So basically if she is awake, then no laptop. I started a part-time job around the time I posted my last post, and since then I’ve been trying to put in some extra hours. Those credit cards aren’t going to pay themselves, though that would be great if they did. A good friend that I’ve known since elementary school got me in at his job, which goes to prove, once again, that it’s not what you know, it’s who you know. Lucky for me I know a lot of people. Because I know you are dying to know where I work, I’ll just say that I work in a senior living home in dining services. Which has its ups and downs, but that’s a post for another day, today I’m just playing catch up.

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A Moment Of Clarity That Leads To A Better Me

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Today while stressing out about bills, as I always do because I’m pretty much stressed out all the time due to being an overthinker, I decided to finally do the pile of dishes that had been staring at me all day. I forgot how much I like to clean and how it always makes me feel better, which is insane since my room was always messy until I married Mykal. Maybe it’s the fact that I grew up a disorganized mess that being in a clean, organized and structured home, puts my mind at ease. All the things that I have been worrying about just seemed to fade away and allowed me to think for a moment. The mind is truly amazing, it is always thinking and it can be overwhelming, but when I clean I am allowed to focus on the tedious task and distract my brain which allowed for that moment of clarity I so desperatly needed. For some reason all of my problems and worries seems insignificant and almost like I will be able to overcome them, It just seemed so simple, like I was just worrying so much about the problems that I was blind to the answer that was sitting there in front of me. Continue reading →

My Name Is Samantha, And I’m Addicted To Pinterest

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In case you have never heard of it (have you been living under a rock??), Pinterest is pretty much an online cork board of ideas that you can “pin” to your personal boards for later use. It’s basically DIY heaven. I spend hours and hours looking at all the crafty ideas and getting inspired. Hell, it’s currently 12:47am and I am still surfing Pinterest! So if you have a job and a life, stay away from Pinterest, it’s a total time suck. It’s given me delicious meal ideas, things for me to sew, and ways to spruce up my house with a little DIY. Gawd I love this site.

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Dallas Comic Con 2012

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Ok, I have to blog about this, because it was just such an amazing experience. Saturday I went to my very first Dallas Comic Con!

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11 Months Already?! How Can This Be?

Oh my gosh! How did this happen?! Where, oh where has the time gone? Ally is 11 months now and on the 31st she will be a year. A year! It’s just so hard to believe. It feels like only yesterday that the nurses were handing her to me and I was holding my sweet baby girl in my arms for the first time. A lot has happened since then, and she’s grown into quite the little determined and inquisitive drama queen. She began walking last week, I was so proud. It was just so amazing to watch her let go of the couch and take off to her play area without any help. Now she’s walking all over the place. I love it! But I know that this just means that there’s more trouble for her to get into, and I’ll need to take baby proofing and turn it to toddler proofing. Yea, good luck with that. Haha. This month will be a busy one. I’m working on her first birthday party, and of course I want it to be perfect. I have a vision in my head and now I just need to make it a reality. Her theme will be Alice in Wonderland, and I’m just so excited! My little Ally in Wonderland, she will be so adorable! I can’t wait!

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Life Is Good and Always Getting Better

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Hello there, friends! More exciting things happening in the world of Sam. Remember when I mentioned that I was a community manager for Talking About Games? Well, it’s gotten even better. I was asked to be a host on the Talking About Gamers podcast! Sure these things may sound silly to some, and it may be even sillier for me to be so excited about them, but I am absolutely thrilled. I really do love video games and the whole gaming community, and these things just let me embrace that and be more involved with it all. Sure I have been a little apprehensive with it all, I don’t want to intrude on anything. But I think I am going to try to be a bit more outgoing with it. If I cross any lines, I’m sure they’ll tell me. Who knows, maybe the podcast will help with Likes and Followers for TAG. Our first recording will be this Sunday. I am excited and nervous. I hope I do a good job. I better start playing a few new games so I can be up to speed on it all. Continue reading →

Hello Again, It’s Been Too Long

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Hey there, so we are going on like, what, a month of no new posts? Sorry about that folks. I’ve been meaning to post something and then things just get in the way or I am too tired to do so. There have been a lot of changes going on lately and I’m still adjusting to it all. I guess I could just go ahead and get you up to speed on things. Ready for a mini novel?

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Here Fishy, Fishy, Fishy

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Seems like the only time I have time to write is when every one is asleep, but by then I’m so tired I just want to crash out as well. I guess that’s the life of a working mother. That’s ok, Ally is totally worth it. While this isn’t the post I wanted it to be, it is something. That has to count right? I’m still working in a couple that I’ve been wanting to post for a week now, hopefully I’ll find some time in the next couple days to finish them up and deliver them straight to you with a big red bow.

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