I swear I only post once a year, what kind of blog am I running here? Geez. Well here is my post for 2016, I could say that I will do better but who knows if I actually will or not. It is something I am trying to improve on still. I have a hard time finding time to do the things I like and when I do have free time I usually spend it doing other things. Time management is something I need to work at, school, work, kids… it can be hard to balance it all out. I need more self disciplone when it comes to managing my time. Oh well. I’ll just try to do one thing better a day and maybe it will work out.

So anyways, this isn’t a post to declare any sort of new years resolution. I didn’t even accomplish anything that was in my last post about things I wanted to do in 2015. But I did go back to school. That might have been on my list, although it has been an adjustment. The school hasn’t been very helpful, and it seems like every time I get ahead, something happens that sets me back. I’ll get there though. I have to. I have to finish and I have to show Ally and Leo that it can be done no matter what the circustances. I may not be able to give them the life I originally wanted for them but I can still instil the need for a good education in them. I have many doubts about myself as a parent on a regular basis but I know that I am not wrong on this one.

Mainly the reason for this scattered post is just to write agian, in any form. I have slacked off quite a bit this last year and I know I can do better. I find it relaxing to write for fun. Writing for class was okay but there was pressure to make the grade, to have a format and be confined to a specific topic,  writing here is a little more free and I can do it in any form I see fit.

I need to do some major changes on my entire blog. The about me page is gone so that I can rewrite it. My life isn’t what it was when I started this blog. Many things are different. If they are for the better, that has yet to be seen. But many times you cannot go back. You must always move forward. Does life have a plan for me? Or am I in complete control? Are the choices I have made and that I continue to make the right ones for me and the kids? I surely hope so. I am in constant turmoil about it and  hope that they turn out alright despite the life they will be brought up in. I hope they know that both of their parents love them even though we aren’t the family unit we started out as.

Well it is late and my rambling is just that, rambling. I have a few ideas for actual posts but let’s see if I can sit still long enough to actually write them.

Until next time.