Well, today is the day. My last day of work. Starting tomorrow I will officially be a stay at home mom. I’m excited… mostly. I won’t even lie, I am a little nervous about this. I am thrilled that I will be able to spend more time with Ally and that I will be able to cook and clean more than before, but I am terrified about not having my own income anymore. I know, I’m married and that means there is no “his money/her money” thing, I just liked the freedom to splurge whenever I felt like it. Oh well, I am sure I will get used to it and I am positive things will be ok. If I stay positive, then good things will happen for us. I just know it. I have to look at the bright side and be thankful for everything I have.

Now that I will be starting this new chapter in my life, I am setting some goals for myself. Mainly short-term at this point, but hey, a goal is a goal, right? I’m sure I have posted a few of them before, and I am going to do it again. Maybe blogging more should be a goal too so I don’t keep repeating my posts. Anyhoo, starting Monday, we will begin potty training with Ally. That will be interesting and I will be sure to let you know how that goes (besides messy haha). I am hoping that with a chart, we can get the hang of it pretty quick. *fingers crossed* I would prefer to only change one set of diapers once Leo gets here. I will also be doing some more planning on my baby shower for Leo since he will be here before I know it. Heck, I am already 31 weeks! Time is flying by and I’m not sure if I want it to speed up so that he will be here, or if I want it to slow down so I can prepare. Not that you can ever be fully prepared for kids. Lesson learned on that one. I will also be working on getting Ally into a better sleep schedule, because this going to be at midnight and 1:00 am, is not working for momma. I need my alone time, darn it! This one will probably take some time, but with diligence we might just get it done before Leo is born. My last big goal (so far) won’t be until the new year. I plan to go back to school. Preferably online, though I don’t know what the counselors will say about that and my past record with attendance. Just going to wait and see with that.

It really is hard to believe this pregnancy is almost over. I feel like there is so much I still need to do before Leo arrives and then I feel like I’m just thinking that way because I am pregnant. I would like to get this place super organized, though let’s be realistic here, that is probably not going to happen. I still have my concerns about me being able to handle two kids at home, and I have new concerns about how Ally will be when I go to hospital to give birth. But I have supportive friends and family (well, mostly) and I am sure they will make sure everything is fine. It will definitely change things around here, I hope Ally is ready for that. Hell, I hope I am ready for that. Maybe being home now will help me focus on Ally and maybe she will see that she is still important and loved, no matter how many kids we may have (though I think we may stop after this one). I plan to show her tons and tons of attention and get her ready for a brother over the next couple months. Good thing I know that things don’t always go according to plan though.

Well, until next time. I have to go add stuff to my baby shower to do list.